Such a weird term… Paper Pregnancy. It popped into my brain this week and I can’t stop thinking about it. I feel overwhelmed. I feel emotional. I started having surreal dreams about it. Adoption… I woke up today… in a somber mood, such an inexplicable feeling lingering over me. Hours later I remembered my vivid … Continue reading »
Eat This!
Remember in the beginning of the month when I wrote (here) about weight loss and my goal to keep it off? Well, I’m here with a little update and some recipes that will surely make your mouth water… at least I hope. I’ve so far managed to lose six pounds and keep them off. For … Continue reading »
My Good Man
Rough and tough journey’s aren’t meant to be traveled alone… at least not for me. Without my husband, I’d be more of a wreck than I am now, which is hard to envision being that I am pretty messed up as it is. I’ve been able to write on how I’ve been coping with the … Continue reading »
Bye Bye Hot Flashes
“I’ve moved on. Yup, totally over it. Nothing to think about here…” I feel the need to reassure myself with those words a few times a day on days like these. Yes folks, I am once again talking about the baby-making-infertility issue. I have been fine, surrendering it all. Moving on. Accepting it. Thanking God … Continue reading »
The Part Where We Wait
It’s all out of our hands. The part of the adoption process where we simply wait on our social worker to complete our home-study. The part that feels like an eternity. The part that makes me want to make a sort of bribe to get it done faster (not like I’d do that, of course). … Continue reading »
Just a Reminder- You
You. You are amazing. Yes, you, the one who is at home reading this from your computer. Or you, the one who is standing in line reading this on your savvy techie phone. You. You are wonderful. You are the apple of His eye. His- referring to the all-powerful King- God. You are strong. You’re … Continue reading »
New Year, New You
For a few brief minutes, I felt a part of me die. In the midst of the pain, the heartbreak, the chaos, the confusion, disappointment- all of my future goals, and desires seemed to matter just as equal like a grain of sand. Call me crazy but that’s just how I felt when hope was … Continue reading »
Timing is Key (But Not Yours)
Some tell me to just not to think about it. I’m ‘traumatizing’ myself by talking and crying about my infertility. What if I close my eyes and count to ten? Will I forget about it then? What if I pretend all pregnant ladies with cute baby bumps are just fat? Will I be able to … Continue reading »
Plan A, Plan B, and Faith
If Plan A fails resort to Plan B. Let me just start off by saying that our adoption wasn’t a If-Pregnancy-Fails-Adoption-Is-Our-Plan-B Plan. I tell my friends that it was more like a Plan A, Step 2. We intended on getting pregnant first then pursue an adoption ‘once we were settled in’. God clearly had different … Continue reading »
Dinosaurs, Owls, and Toys For Our Kids
I am aware that the title for this post makes me sound like a crazy, infertile, insane, wanna be mom but I can’t help it. I am in fact thinking of our children. My heart breaks this Christmas Eve night. My husband and I spent the day looking at websites with sweet faces of orphaned … Continue reading »
