For a few brief minutes, I felt a part of me die. In the midst of the pain, the heartbreak, the chaos, the confusion, disappointment- all of my future goals, and desires seemed to matter just as equal like a grain of sand.
Call me crazy but that’s just how I felt when hope was deferred when it came to conceiving.
In the span of less than two months I let myself go and gained 8 pounds. What a shame, I now think… In the moment, I had no reason to care. No reason to lose weight since my reason in initially losing it was for a healthy pregnancy… well… that is out of the picture.
I am here now. New year, new goals, new perspective, and a re-newed state of mind.
A few weeks ago, as God pulled me out of my depression, I read my devotional as I waited in the hospital for my ‘fertility’ meds. I came across the verse from 1 Corinthians 7:4
The wife hath not power over her own body, but the husband; and likewise also the husband hath not power over his own body, but the wife.
Then it hit me… I am married, I have a husband, and in a sense, my body belongs to him. Given that this verse follows by saying “do not deprive each other”… it is also referenced for a deeper meaning (but I’m not gonna go there). I need to lose weight, for myself, for my health, for my husband, for my future. Most of us get comfortable when we get married. We don’t try as hard as when we dated and so the weight starts piling up.
I’m determined to make this year memorable. Despite last years heartache, I am determined to make myself a better woman, a better wife, a better sister, a better daughter, a better friend, and a better leader. I stepped on the scale Monday morning and vowed to myself that I’d never get to see that number again. I am going to lose 50 pounds before August (which is my 23rd birthday) and that’s that!
So I type this as I am sore and with a happy stomach (cause I just had a bomb dinner). I will try to post up some recipes I find online and try at home!
We all make resolutions and plan on keeping them but how exactly do you intend on keeping them? Share with me your success stories, resolutions, plan of attack, and what you’re looking forward to this year!
Here’s two recipes I tried today without breaking the calorie bank!
Zucchini Lasagna
Pasta-less Zucchini Lasagna. I added spinach to it to make it healthier and made it totally yummier! You can check out the recipe here- http://www.tasteofhome.com/Recipes/Zucchini-Lasagna.
Healthified Mediterranean Beef Pita Pizzas
I made these for lunch and they were delicious (I just had one haha, my friend had the other)! The picture shows the last step of the process… after taking it out of the oven like that, I added the spinach, tomatoes, and feta cheese and the pizza was less than 260 calories! Here’s the link to that- Pita Pizza’s.
Hope you enjoy them and Happy New Year to you all!
