It’s all out of our hands.
The part of the adoption process where we simply wait on our social worker to complete our home-study. The part that feels like an eternity. The part that makes me want to make a sort of bribe to get it done faster (not like I’d do that, of course).
It’s definitely a great feeling though, certainly not the waiting part but the part where this wait is leading us to. After this wait we will be able to submit our home-study’s on children we’d like to have further info on. Once we get some info on them and if we’d like to pursue them further, we get to eventually set up a play date with them and if we all hit it off, they come home to us. Okay, that seems way too simple and I assure you this won’t go exactly the way it’s written but I’ll definitely hope for it.
I’m also aware that this waiting is just the beginning to even more… waiting. But like I said, there is a sigh of relief knowing that it is out of our hands and that the waiting isn’t because of us but because of the process.
We are anxious. So anxious that we already have a twin bed and a dresser set up (thanks to our friends for donating!) in the guest bedroom for that special someone that will fill it. Bare white walls waiting for beautiful colorful pictures and undetermined pinks or blues for theme colors are making me eager to make this wait end. We are so ready for this all to happen!
Then all I hear is my spirit say “don’t get ahead of yourself, He’s going to blow your mind away”. Yes, I know, He tends to blow my mind away. He tends to blow all my plans away too. He tends to shift things around on me and makes sure He even pulls the carpet underneath me away. He is truly, truly one to leave a lasting impression for a lifetime. When I realize that I’m making things happen MY way, I realize I stopped letting God DO. That’s when things start feelings a lot more slower paced.
Maybe this wait is meant for more than just a new part of the process. I know it’s meant to teach me a lesson or two on relying on Him. He is in control. He made sure to teach me that last year when I hoped on getting pregnant. “It’s not time yet”- those words sure make sense now. It’s time to rest in Him. Time to know that He will make things happen on His time. Time to rest in knowing that I’ve done all I could in this process and now I simply need to rely on Him- and I think I could get used to that idea.
What are you waiting on? Are you resting in Him while you wait?
Waiting along with you my friend
I have been there, and am there. We too have had God sort of pull the carpet our from underneath us a couple of times (as you know). But, as you also know…What a blessed journey it has been & what a Happy Ending we are working towards <3
Enjoy the wait, in God's waiting room….Continue to draw nearer to Him during this time….and Buckle Up & Hang On, brace yourself for quite a ride
We love you guys! We look forward to watching your journey unfold & your family come together.
Chauncee, you don’t know how blessed I am with your friendship <3. Seriously, I'd be going crazy without your guidance as we're walking in this journey. I cannot wait for the happy ending to a new beginning and I'm so excited to get first row seat on yours!! Love your testimony and your heart for adoption <3