I want NOW to happen now.

I want the adoption to go through NOW.

I want to get pregnant NOW.

I want to move NOW.

I want everything done NOW.

But from what I’ve learned in life is that now doesn’t happen when I want it to. I cry and throw my tantrum and ask God for the basics of life I feel entitled to have and all He says sometimes is “not now”.

Not now…

I wonder what that means? Does He REALLY mean not now? Why not? Aren’t I ready? Aren’t I worthy? Aren’t I capable?

Quiet, my soul, quiet. Not now means that it will come later.

Shawn, the pastor from our church gave a wonderful preaching Sunday. He used Romans 12:9-21 and one verse just stuck

Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

Romans 12:12

I read, re-read, read, and re-read the verse and all I could think of was “wow, this is tough”. It sunk in throughout the day, I woke up Monday and there it was again, reminding me “be joyful in hope”. Today I stand heartbroken and I’m reminded “be patient in affliction”. And now I am reminded that He hears my plea’s so pray…

I want things done NOW but more than anything I want God’s will done over mine… even if it means NOT NOW.

Be patient friends. I hate the word patience when it has something to do with me but know that He’s not saying it won’t happen, He’s just saying it won’t happen just this very moment.

What do you want to happen now? What has helped you with the wait?