“Be kind, for everyone you meet is fighting a hard battle”
Nobody goes through life unscathed in one way or another. Sometimes battles come all at once, hitting us like a tropical storm with the works- rain, hail, lightening, thunder, and a gusting wind. Then sometimes battles come sporadically, just when one is over and you feel you’re in the clear, another one comes along to make sure you’re out of your comfort zone… but hey, at least you’re a little warmed up from the last one, right?
I can’t even begin to put into words what has happened lately without exposing some of the battles I have faced. So I won’t. Shedding some light on unresolved battles to the public would only bring more unwelcomed chaos in my life and really, that’s the LAST thing I need.
I look forward to be able to write about this in the future because I know this would help so many people that are in the closet trying to solve this on their own. I tried resolving this specific issue on my own for years… YEARS. I didn’t get very far. Instead, I became more frustrated, more lonely, more vulnerable, and felt I had very little power over the situation. Nobody has to feel that way though.
After months of endless tears and fears surfacing, I decided I was no longer going to be a victim to this situation. I started praying, seeking advice from godly friends and leaders (Prov. 27:9), reading the Bible, reading books that were godly and encouraging, but most importantly- I began to see my worth in Christ. I no longer let the situation dictate my worth, my emotions, my power, and my ability.
My life seems great in pictures and in status updates. Pictures of our handsome toddler, our cute fluffy white dog, selfies of the husband and I, the occasional coffee and Bible pic, and the endless food pics would never give away the fact that life isn’t all rainbows and butterflies.
Why don’t I post a picture of the daily crap I go through or post a status update? Because 1) it’s 2) none 3) of 4) your 5) business… yeah, I said it. And because one status update or one picture regarding our personal issues will only make us vulnerable targets and tainted people because of our current battle.
I’ve read some articles about how we all paint this picture perfect life on the internet and that we’re lying because life isn’t that grand all the time. It’s true though… but I’m not trying to paint this picture perfect life for anyone. I post the good, the beautiful, the blessings and sometimes even the not-so-pretty happenings so that when a battle is hitting hard, I can look back at the GOOD I have in my life and remember that while I cling to my God.
I am guilty of judging others picture perfect lives. Their pictures of their sweet cuddly babies, extravagant trips to wine country and across the world, their thin new bodies, their clean and beautifully furnished homes, and huge happy families. Their lives look great on pictures and I want to be them!
Then I remember that EVERYONE is fighting their own battle and that we are all carry this resilient strength, only gained through Christ, to be able to smile through the pain because we all have hope that this battle will only make us stronger.
“He will restore you and make you strong, firm and steadfast”
1 Peter 5:10