Through The Potter’s Hands (again)

“Why do I have to go through yet ANOTHER trail?” I cried to my friend on the phone while talking to her about some of life’s recent strike against me.

She then said “because you are strong”. Of course, me, strong. I went on about telling her how unfair it felt; how life has always been hard and that I had really expected this part of life to be easier. From a rough childhood, to military, infertility, adoption, etc etc etc… this specific (non-specific) part of life was just supposed to be well… less harder at least.

I realized that as much as I ignore complimentary words like “strong” that there was some truth in them.

I am strong. I am victorious. I am beautiful.

For a while now, those words weren’t allowed to have value in my life because God wasn’t at the center of my life. Hearing that I am strong, victorious, or even beautiful wasn’t received in my heart. I realized that my true strength, beauty, confidence, and courage all came from the Lord and that by me not having Him as my center was throwing my identity out the door.

Without God as the center we find ourselves often dragged down by anything- We feel off center, weary, with a lack of confidence and peace. Words that can be used to uplift us end up hitting the barrier we have set in front of us to avoid getting hurt.

These few days have been prayerful, quiet, and continuously longing for His peace and direction. As much as I may not want to go through YET another trial, I am ready because through all of my past trials, I’ve realized that they’ve been all for His glory.

At the end of my life, I want to make sure my life was lived to honor and glorify God and if it’s at the expense of this part of my life, then so be it.

He’s the potter and I’m the clay.

{my prayer for you today is that you may receive words of encouragement from others that can potentially nourish your heart. may your heart be willing to go through the Potter’s hands over and over again as long as He keeps using us.}

Calling All Milspouses- PCSing, DITY, TMO, and Insanity

How I’m Feeling right now

A cup of coffee.

Mumford & Sons.

And my cute baby on my lap as I type this.

While there’s momentary peace, PCSing is still lingering all over this home. One month and some change left. Am I nervous? Yes. Am I scared? I’m not going to lie, a little. Am I sad? A tad. Am I stressed? OH BOY, I am. Now that I basically self assessed myself on my blog for everyone to read, I’m calling all military spouses for HELP!

DITY VS TMO.

Pro’s? Con’s? Which outweighs them all? Is partial DITY a possibility in the USMC and what is it specifically? How early can TMO come to your place and pack you up? How early does it arrive at your new location?

Here’s a little info on our PCS- Fort Gordon, GA (Augusta area), First PCS as a family but husband’s second PCS. Will be PCSing a baby and a dog. First time in the South for this Californian. June. AHHH.

So milspouse’s, kindly weigh in with your experiences! Share this with your milspouse friends and beg them (or bribe them, whatever) to weigh in. And please share your survival guide!

Cannot wait to get this all moving along so that we can enjoy some Southern hospitality and maybe even some sweet tea!

Seize the Day

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Slow down, little one, slow down.

Busy body. Fast crawler. Sweaty toes. It all happens too fast.

In no time he will be walking, climbing those stairs, and running fast. I just pray he desires to run to me rather than away.

With you, I’ve learned about a deeper level of love. One so jealous and strong and unconditional. Little one, slow down a bit, will ya? Because your sweet smile, your little toes, and your scent just make my day brighter.

He won’t slow down but I have. I’ve been given this precious miracle and I’m enjoying every minute of him.

Seize the day.

Georgia On My Mind {late night ramblings}

It’s been one heck of a year for us and it’s not even the end of it!

Needless to say, this year has by far been the GREATEST yet! Two adoptions: our Jimmy dog and our amazing baby Lucas, moved to a bigger place, lost a little bit more weight, became a runner (for two seconds), started school, and picked up a new language (okay, just kidding on this one, but it just seemed like the cool thing to add).

Oh also, we got orders to move to Georgia (this is where we should all be cheering but all we hear are crickets). Yeah, for a moment, in the midst of all the awesomeness of life, I had forgotten that my husband is in the military.

We make the move a few months after 2013 begins. I’m still trying to get excited over it. Woooohoooo! Anyways, I’m grateful that we get to travel the country and experience life in a different state. I will put aside my hair issues vs. Southern humidity and look forward to catching some fireflies.

Aside from getting orders, these past few months have been great. Yes, I am still learning how to work this new mommy role and yes, it is one heck of a tiring role but throughout my day I say to myself that I love being a mother. My little baby has grown so much these last few weeks! I’m still in disbelief that he’s finally starting to enjoy some foods here and there. He’s turned into a chatterbox. He enjoys deep conversation and he replies in gurgles and hisses with stunning smiles. His charm
(and sometimes his fussiness) makes it hard to get anything done in the day!

Wow, I went off topic. It’s hard not to talk about Lucas when I spend every single minute with him.

Anyways, October is a special month here! It’s our anniversary month, my lovely husband and I will be celebrating 3 years of marriage on the 23rd. I still can’t believe how incredibly fast these three years have passed and how amazing they have been. I have been wonderfully blessed with a man that loves so deeply and wholeheartedly.

Although our family has experienced a tremendously amazing year, I’ve had to see a few friends that I’ve met through the military move away. These are the type of friends I shared life with . Some of which I saw their babies take their first breath. Some of which we shared a deployment and shared our anniversary dinner together. Some of which we shared game nights, and oftentimes tears of joy and sadness. I admit that the last goodbye wasn’t said. I was too weak and too tired of having to say another goodbye to my other friends earlier this year, that I put myself in denial and pretended my sweet friend was still nearby. I know, I am ashamed.

I guess this post is a reminder to myself. I’m still a military wife. I have, for so long, tried to exempt myself from living a military lifestyle that I believed that it wouldn’t affect me. It has. Life happens, whether it’s amazing, bad, or dull, my husband still gets to be away from home for weeks at a time (and sometimes get deployed), we get to move to different states, we get to meet new people; this is all part (and more) of being married to a spouse in the service but it what you make of it that matters. If it weren’t for the military, I wouldn’t have met my amazing friends.

So that’s it for now. Life. Lot’s of coffee, lot’s of laughs, lot’s of dirty diapers (lately) so I thought it’d be fitting for you to read some of it!

How are you doing?

Boggled about Blogging

It’s hard to balance writing a blog when there are SO many different things going on in my life. I mean, it may be hard to believe for some BUT infertility isn’t the only thing I eat, sleep and breath here.

So if this is your first time checking out my blog (or not), then here’s what I’m all about (summed up in really basic words)-

  • I’m infertile,
  • We are going through an adoption process,
  •  I am on a weight loss journey,
  • I am a Beachbody Coach,
  • I’m a military spouse
  • My husband and I have started to eat less processed, dairy-less and less meats,
  • I am learning to do more DIY (Do It Yourself) projects,
  • oh and I’m a sinner with flaws that cover the Great Wall of China and back and remember that through God’s grace I am here.

How do you fit that all in a blog when I want to post about the pains of infertility and then a post on how to make Almond Milk? HA! I have no idea!

Often times I’ve thought about making two different sites for different posts but I am truly not that dedicated in maintaining two different blogs on any given day. So if you’re ready to ready about any of the above topics or more (as life tends to throws some sour lemons my way), then stick around!

I think I’ll use this post as a transition to some yummy recipes to come! I’ll try posting some later tonight!

Any topics you want to see? Recipe ideas? Suggestions? Let me know!