“Why do I have to go through yet ANOTHER trail?” I cried to my friend on the phone while talking to her about some of life’s recent strike against me.
She then said “because you are strong”. Of course, me, strong. I went on about telling her how unfair it felt; how life has always been hard and that I had really expected this part of life to be easier. From a rough childhood, to military, infertility, adoption, etc etc etc… this specific (non-specific) part of life was just supposed to be well… less harder at least.
I realized that as much as I ignore complimentary words like “strong” that there was some truth in them.
I am strong. I am victorious. I am beautiful.
For a while now, those words weren’t allowed to have value in my life because God wasn’t at the center of my life. Hearing that I am strong, victorious, or even beautiful wasn’t received in my heart. I realized that my true strength, beauty, confidence, and courage all came from the Lord and that by me not having Him as my center was throwing my identity out the door.
Without God as the center we find ourselves often dragged down by anything- We feel off center, weary, with a lack of confidence and peace. Words that can be used to uplift us end up hitting the barrier we have set in front of us to avoid getting hurt.
These few days have been prayerful, quiet, and continuously longing for His peace and direction. As much as I may not want to go through YET another trial, I am ready because through all of my past trials, I’ve realized that they’ve been all for His glory.
At the end of my life, I want to make sure my life was lived to honor and glorify God and if it’s at the expense of this part of my life, then so be it.
He’s the potter and I’m the clay.
{my prayer for you today is that you may receive words of encouragement from others that can potentially nourish your heart. may your heart be willing to go through the Potter’s hands over and over again as long as He keeps using us.}


